| Attention idiots |
[Feb. 26th, 2005|09:34 pm] |
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I made a new livejournal with a different user name so please add: sekushipirate to your friends list and not livabyssian anymore. I'm going to discontinue this journal from now on. All new entries will appear on my sekushipirate account. BYE. |
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| Good times.. |
[Dec. 16th, 2004|11:21 pm] |
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9 more days... |
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| Future College Plans?? |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|07:45 am] |
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Yeah so i've been looking into online college's and such and I'm thinking of getting my B.A. in Interior Design at Art Institute Online. I've always been interested in Interior Design so I'm thinking of giving it a shot towards getting it starting this summer. So yeah that's the scoop on my plans for College. BYE. |
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| Put the puzzle back apart again |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|10:28 am] |
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18 days til I move back to Kona... |
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| More Plans |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|03:10 am] |
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I'm posting this information partly to just blab out my future plans and also to store some info crap.
Anyways...I've been thinking and planning and researching about buying property and then a house kit in which I will hire someone to build and such in Kona for awhile now(Not necessarily Kailua Kona but at least somewhere within 30 minutes of it). I consider this all to be a brilliant and beneficial idea for my future, possibly near future(within the next 10 years).
So here's the scope yo..I've been calculating things recently, trying to take in all possible things, here's where I could use a little help if I'm missing something. So far I've only been calculating based off of a monthly savings of $1,000 dollars. If I can save $1,000 dollars a month(I figure I'll get $1,000 dollars or so in tips per month from bartending if I get around $50 dollars in tips per night, 5 days a week, 20 days a month, blah blah blah). Which will give me $12,000 dollars a year, if I'm paying for property that costs $25,000 dollars then I could buy/pay it off in 2 years and 1 month if I start at the exact age of 19 (January 28th 2005). Which will mean If those things considering work out that way, I could have property at the age of 21. There are still many other things I need to consider like what if I can only save $800 dollars a month or what if someone gives me a loan, etc.
Okay, So if I get this property at the exact(I'm using exact because it makes things easier to calculate though I could very possibly get this property before I turn 21 or maybe by the time i'm 22 or 23, who knows really)age of 21 then my next step is to buy a Yurt(You can see what they look like HERE). A Yurt is something that has been adapted from the Mongolian Nomads of back in the day. Anyways to put it quite simply, it's a small or big(depending)sort of semi permanent tent. It's in the shape of a circular dome. In my opinion it's totally awesome and very customizable. The Yurt I want to get is 20feet in circumference with possibly the french doors, It will come out to about $8,000 dollars. I then want to get a second Yurt and connect them together through an extra door(which I can buy from them). The second Yurt will probably be 12feet in circumference which I believe is the smallest Yurt you can buy from them. That second Yurt will be my bedroom and will come out to about $4,500 dollars. The bigger Yurt will be my kitchen/bathroom/huge livingroom/entertainment/guestroom/everything except my bedroom, room. I will then have to hire someone to install the plumping and the partition walls for my bathroom and kitchen. I'm not sure how much that will cost. I figure in the end, everything will have cost me $15,000 dollars. The Yurt will probably be completely done(the plumping and such) by...let's just say 22 years old. In which I would then say to hell with the place i'm renting and go live in my Yurt for the next 4 or so years on my own beautiful property. I plan to grow a crazy garden or something around my Yurts, it'll be awesome.
Now..Once I get my living situations taken care of with the Yurt and all(this is if the Hawaii state building code and regulations lets me build this, Hawaii is a bitch and i'm currently trying to find out if building this Yurt will be possible for me -_-) then I can start paying for my House kit. Yes KIT. My dads friend is trying to import these house kits from Brazil which are basically...a house but it's in a kit, you pay for it, get the kit, build the house. All the wood and everything to make it is all in the kit. The wood is absolutely beautiful and it's a hard wood, it'll basically last forever, you don't worry about these houses ever rotting out from weather or bugs I can tell you that. So I once again calculated..If I still continued to save $1,000 dollars a month (I would probably save more since I'm not paying rent anymore, yay for Herps! I mean Yurts >_>) which once again would give me $12,000 dollars in savings a year and guessing that the house kit will cost me possibly a total of $50,000 dollars (this is all very possible because I get a discount since this is my dads best friend and because he told me he would give me one good kine discount).
So assuming the house kit costs $50,000 dollars and I save $12,000 dollars a year, I could buy/pay off the house kit within 4 years and 2 months. Estimated age I would be with those things considered is 26 and 2 months years old. If I am able to save $2,000 dollars a month which is $24,000 dollars a year, I could have the house kit paid for within 2 years and 2 months. Which would mean I would have a house by the age of 24 and 2 months. I am going to guess it would take 6 months total to have my house built with plumping and outlets and everything completed. That...will cost quite a lot of money.
SO i'm going to guess the cost of having all these things put in will cost possibly up to $10,000 dollars in the end or close to that, maybe $7,000. I'm going to say $7,000 because a person with no building experience can build this house if they can read and understand instructions which come with the kit. Basically all I need is someone to set the foundation, make sure the ground is flat and such, I'll need a pro for that, that will cost money...I and a group of other people, probably my dad and his friends who are all very smart and strong people and they also have the right equipment and vehicles to do this with like fork lift type machines and such can help me build it. So the building of the house with just us regular folk will probably take 4 months. Also my friends would probably like to help in anyway they can as well which is great. I think it will be a fun and rewarding experience for damn sure. Then I need to hire people to do plumping and electrical crap. Then other such things I can't think of right now. Since I'm figuring i'll need $7,000 dollars to get this whole house built and usable, It would take me 7 months to get that money if I only save $1,000 dollars a month so let's say if I have the house paid for by the age of 26 and 2 months and get my house built within the course of 10 months then I'll have my own property and my own house at the nice age of 27. HOW FRICKIN AWESOME IS THAT HMM?!!!!!!!!!
Okay..so...the benefits of having a home are quite obvious, i'm going to name them anyway. With a house I can go on vacations and not worry about losing my place. Instead of paying/WASTING like 800-1000 dollars rent for the rest of my life or even at this early age does not appeal to me whatsofreakingever. Having a house as soon as possible will pay off in the long run, instead of all that money being wasted into rent, it'll go into having property and a house and such. The benefits of the Yurts AFTER I build my house will be either a studio that I could rent out to someone or I would make it a separate entertainment room and/or an extra guest room. I want the house kit that I buy to have 4 rooms in it. The master bedroom of course will be mine, I will rent out 2 of the other rooms to my friends and the 4th room will be for guests/friends who sleep over.
I want my house to serve also as a sanctuary for my friends. If ever any of my friends want to visit the Hawaiian islands they'll have somewhere to stay or if any of my friends get into a horrible mess with a relationship or something and need to get away from where they are then they can come live with me and I will do whatever I can to help them get back on their feet. The most horrible feeling in the world is that a friend of mine is suffering needlessly and alone. It's also the reason why I'm going to rent out 2 of the rooms to 2 of my friends, whichever 2 need it the most or who I feel I could live with and not try to kill or be killed by haha. Course what I mean by having them 'rent' a room, we're basically splitting the electricity bill and water bill and possibly splitting tv cable bills or internet access bills depending on if we are all sharing it or not. I'm not going to charge my friends any more money than what is needed to pay their share of the bills. I don't care if i've paid almost 100,000 dollars for everything, I'm not going to so called..pay myself back through other people because they're not there to pay for my house, I paid for my house, that was my decision and I don't ever plan on trying to make back the money by charging my friends, that is just too selfish in my mind, it isn't something I want or need and so therefor I won't bother with it.
My dad and I are living with his friend in his friends house and he is charging my dad 700 dollars a month but that makes sense because my dads friend currently doesn't work so he has to make money from somewhere right? So he gets it through rent and that's fine. But I will be working for my money just as everyone else so I'm not going to milk my friends for extra cash, period.
Any friends of mine who live in my house should feel very blessed because they're basically living in their own house because all they're doing is paying the bills and nothing extra like rent fees and such. They can also go on vacations and not have to worry about me kicking them out. Of course the amount of time they spend on vacation would have to be reasonable. They can't just go on a 5 year vacation and expect a place for them when they get back x_x Because of course it ISN'T their house but it's the closest thing they will ever get to having their own home without actually owning it(at this young age).
I could also have awesome house parties and huge sleep overs and not worry too much about the noise factor(It's not as though the neighbor is right on the other side of the wall you know what I mean?).
Also I love a lot of things about Hawai'i..the beach the food the nice locals the mountains, etc etc. Even if I decide to go live in Japan someday or Europe or something, I want to always have a home in Hawai'i to come back to if I wish. And having a home in a place I love is something important to me, it makes me feel that I always have somewhere to go to, that I belong somewhere. I hope it gives that same happiness to my friends as well.
Okay well this is as much crap as I can squeeze out of my brain about my plans of having a house. I spent 3 hours writing this hahaha I need a life ;__; Okay i'ma come back and edit this often prolly. Thanks in advance to anyone who dared to read all of what I wrote and still managed to care in the end. SEE YA!! |
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| Updates...when will it end? |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|11:51 pm] |
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20 days left until I move back to Kona...... |
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| THEY WON!! |
[Oct. 21st, 2004|09:35 pm] |
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WAHINE VOLLEYBALL TEAM BEATS RICE!!!!!!! YEAH BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Looks like i've decided to quit.. |
[Oct. 20th, 2004|02:00 pm] |
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Yeah..I'm not sure how to break it to you in a better way but I've quit College...I'm sorry if this comes as a surprise to some of you and I hope that you don't think of me as anything lower than how you thought of me before. I'm sorry if in any way my quitting College has hurt you, let you down, lead you on, etc. If I have hurt you in any way I just want you to know that I'm truly sorry for hurting you but I am not sorry for quitting, I have no regrets...I never meant to quit College to hurt you.
Most of you would like to know why so here are my reasons though you may not agree or support them. I hope that neither of you hold my reasons against me...
As for my reasons..I've decided to withdraw from College because of the following:
1. No motivation whatsoever to be or go through with College as I've had no motivation for school before then since 7th grade due to my own personal problems that leek into my schoolwork.
2. The reason why I went to College in the first place was to get a B.A. so that I could teach English in Japan. I have realized that I don't actually want to teach English; as a matter of fact I dislike the English language. What I actually want to do is just live in Japan and be with the culture, not necessarily teach anything. Now that I’ve realized I don't want to teach English now I have no reason to get a B.A. and you may say that I do have a reason to get one cuz it'll get me a better job and more money but that isn't something that concerns me as much as it may concern you. Yes it may be easier to get a better higher job that makes a lot by having a B.A. but there are other jobs out there that I can be just as happy to have without a B.A. and I am willing to find it even if that route requires I struggle and suffer. What is life without obstacles?
3. School has not been for me since 7th grade and I have struggled and suffered through it since then and tired of it. I am now going to take an alternate route to happiness.
4. I have too many personal problems and things higher on my priority list than College. Though whoever is reading this may not think so or may think what problems could I possibly have that I couldn't fix while going to College? Well..we're all different..and we all have our own ways of taking care of things. With College I have to put my problems second on my list of priorities and that alone is causing me to suffer because I have been putting my problems at the bottom or second on my list of priorities throughout my whole life which I cannot afford to do anymore. Because of my actions in the past though I didn't know any better, I am here where I am now but it isn't the end of the world, life can be great if we make it great. Our minds are much more powerful than some of us may think..
Now..once quitting College one can always go back, like I’ve said, it's not the end of the world. If I decided to become a mechanic I would go back to school if becoming a mechanic requires I go back. If I decide to become an artist, I will go to an art College. But I will not go back to College unless I have a reason such as those. Meanwhile I will go along this alternative route to happiness and I know that I am not alone. I have the greatest friends and I know the greatest people and I'm very lucky to be known and cared about by all of you...I don't think I could thank any of you enough..I'm not asking for any of you to understand or support me in the decision I’ve made, I just ask and hope that you don't feel offended or hurt by my actions. Alright I’m done! I love you guys :D! Bai bai. |
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| Shhh |
[Oct. 13th, 2004|03:03 pm] |
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| | The Partridge Family - I Think I Love You | ] |
Isn't life AWESOME?!?! |
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| I sit here, waiting... |
[Oct. 12th, 2004|11:46 pm] |
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The more I think..the more things become complicated..and in the end it hurts. I'm changing as a person, i'm turning into something that i'm not quite sure of yet. I have a feeling it isn't good though. Every day that passes by I hate more and more, an anger builds up inside of me and I'm beginning to pull myself away from people in general. Life hurts, people hurt, reality hurts, everything hurts. Love and hate is a constant fight in my mind. I've been so confused about life and what I really want lately. I don't feel like trying anymore. I'm afraid of so many things, love, hate, commitment, trust, reality, people, myself. I've been developing an anxiety problem...this isn't like me..I'm about as extroverted as I can get, I tell people everything, I have nothing to hide, or do I? If I do...i'm hiding it from myself as well once again because i'm afraid. I hardly ever go out anymore, I try to hide away in my house so that I can't hurt others and others can't hurt me. I feel things are best this way...but at the same time I don't think it's right. I'm constantly fighting with myself, constantly confused and constantly realizing the things I wish weren't there to realize. I've always been a caring person, always putting others before myself and I still do even though I try not to. I should treat myself just as equally as I treat others but I don't..because I don't want to care about myself, why should I deserve to be cared about? Until I see any reason, I will always place people high above me and keep myself as low on the ladder of hope as possible. Why? Because once again I feel it's best this way...and will always feel it's best this way until I or something makes me realize how foolish i've been. Until then...I can only do what I believe until I know how to change that. But don't get me wrong...I try, though I may not try hard enough...but I try to care about myself, I try not to put myself down but it always comes back to the same thing. And although I don't feel I care about myself I am still a selfish person as all humans are. I do care about myself deep down inside but that is basically human instinct, all people care about themselves to a point...that's what keeps the human race alive..selfishness. If we cared so much about nature..we'd kill off our own race because it's us who destroys nature. But we are too selfish to do something like that, it's unthinkable..And I know that I care about myself because I talk about myself all the time which is quite selfish. This is a recent thing though..I try not to have self pity but I talk about myself and my problems a lot more than I used to...I'm trying to face my problems even though I really would rather not..and before I started to do this, I would just sit there and listen to everyone elses problems to ignore my own. I cannot live a decent life in this society if I become almost completely selfless. Just the same if I became almost completely selfish...I need to find a median...and I'm trying but not hard enough because at the same time..I don't want to care about myself..the thought of caring about myself seems too selfish alone. Basically I need some kind of help..if I'm going to try to find the solution to the problems I've developed in myself due to the fact that i've ignored myself for most of my life until now...then fine..but at the same time I don't want help..I don't want to help myself..I just want everyone else to be happy even if that means I lose in the end...And a problem i've been developing is that i'm purposely treating some of the people I care about, badly. As though I am purposely trying to make the people I care about..hate me or not like me anymore. That way..if they don't like me..they won't want to talk to me or think about me and I won't be a part of their lives in any way...and that way..I can't ever hurt them. I'm starting to believe..i've almost convinced myself that I hurt people and that i'm not a good person. For now i'm just confused and afraid of myself in this world toward others.. |
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| Yay |
[Oct. 9th, 2004|11:11 pm] |
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Your beauty is FUN!!! Man, you really don't CARE
about the way you look because it shouldn't get
in the way of you having a good time. You love
being around lots of people and are very
friendly too. Your beauty tends to be very
ordinary at first but your care-free nature and
contagious laughter make you very appealing.
You've got great verbal skills and your sooo
easy to get along with because not only are you
quite understanding and compassionate but your
light-hearted about things as well. You don't
get under stress that much which helps you keep
up your perky personality. Your beauty can be
characterized by a laugh.(If you can't see the
pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)
What kind of Beauty should you have? (girl) (PICS)
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| Cut my own freaking hair!! |
[Oct. 9th, 2004|06:20 pm] |
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Yeah...I cut my own hair cuz I got no money and I was in crazy need of a hair cut so I chanced it and it came out awesome!! Here's one of the pics I took of my new hair style :0
Tell me what j00 think! |
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| Don't speak.. |
[Oct. 8th, 2004|08:43 pm] |
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| | Cold - No one | ] |
I'm pissed...so incredibly pissed.. |
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| なんでもない！ |
[Oct. 1st, 2004|10:52 am] |
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| | The Cranberries - Dreams | ] |
I've been in a really crappy mood lately...really really crappy. I've been mean and blunt and serious and and and and >0< I don't quite understand why but i'm guessing that it has something to do with the fact that i'm still a jobless bum, I do the same thing every day, I rarely ever go out of the house anymore, and I'm trapped on this damn island until school ends.. Christmas seems so close but so far >:| I'm supposed to go have tea with my friends tonight and i'm happy about that but I hope I can lighten up by that time. Before I got to this angry point I was in a depressed mood. So either i'm getting closer to an overall okay mood or i'll go back to being depressed again and hoping it won't turn into a vicious cycle. Well I hope everything's all g for you guys, don't catch a cold. BYE. |
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[Sep. 20th, 2004|10:35 pm] |
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| So it goes like this... ::Continued!:: |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|09:36 pm] |
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Once again I attack my fellow buddies with boredem...
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
Auto response from rObotsliveyoudie: I am away from my computer right now.
SekushiPirate: So that's a..yes?
rObotsliveyoudie: o.o
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
BoltMoowf: sure!
BoltMoowf: hehehe
SekushiPirate: Right on
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
Hokugrl 07: hell no
Hokugrl 07: maybe if you looked like brad pitt
Hokugrl 07: but you dont
SekushiPirate: How bout now?
Hokugrl 07: wait let me think
Hokugrl 07: ok i guess soo
SekushiPirate: Yes.
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
Samurai RMR: why do girls keep asking me that
SekushiPirate: Yes or no
Samurai RMR: how about
Samurai RMR: FUCK YEAH!!!!
Samurai RMR: hahaha
SekushiPirate: Right on.
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
BBoyNiL: hi
BBoyNiL: lol
SekushiPirate: Hi :D
SekushiPirate: So yes or no?
BBoyNiL: i don't know how!
BBoyNiL: haha why would you want short babies with messed up knees for?
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
onlylifekills: yea ;D
SekushiPirate: WELL TOO BAD, I'M BARREN
onlylifekills: who the what the huh
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
IA MHA IRYT OM: lol what?
SekushiPirate: Yes or no
IA MHA IRYT OM: i dont want to have kids yet
SekushiPirate: So that's a...yes?
IA MHA IRYT OM: lol
SekushiPirate: Excuse me sir I don't appreciate your rude laughter
SekushiPirate: So how's about it?
IA MHA IRYT OM: why do you want kids?
SekushiPirate: No |
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| So it goes like this... |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|01:42 pm] |
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SekushiPirate: So are you going to join me? Entry fee is negotiable, hows about it?
AkumaTenshi16: eh?
SekushiPirate: I said it's negotiable, what's your answer gonna be?
AkumaTenshi16: well unless you sent me a message prior to the one before last I have no clue as to what you are talking about
SekushiPirate: Don't raise your voice towards me
SekushiPirate: That's it
SekushiPirate: Contract terminated.
AkumaTenshi16: ok
SekushiPirate: So are you going to join me? Entry fee is negotiable, hows about it?
PirateAJ417: join you?
SekushiPirate: Yes
PirateAJ417: where?
SekushiPirate: No info until yes or no answer
PirateAJ417: ES
PirateAJ417: yes*
SekushiPirate: So are you going to join me? Entry fee is negotiable, hows about it?
Leviathan IIDX: err?
Leviathan IIDX: Orgy?
Leviathan IIDX: no, i blew too many loads this week.
Leviathan IIDX: kinda hurts already
SekushiPirate: Contract terminated.
SekushiPirate: Wanna get married?
AkumaTenshi16: nah gonna pass on that
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies then?
AkumaTenshi16: you arent able to
SekushiPirate: That doesn't mean I can't try
SekushiPirate: Wanna get married?
PirateAJ417: yes
SekushiPirate: Wanna make babies?
PirateAJ417: yes
SekushiPirate: I'VE FOUND TRUE LOVE!
PirateAJ417: yayayay
SekushiPirate: Wanna get married?
Leviathan IIDX: wtf
Leviathan IIDX: lol
Leviathan IIDX: gotta go eat
Leviathan IIDX: cya
SekushiPirate: That isn't a valid answer. |
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